Thank you for joining me on my journey and welcome to Black Women Mental Space.
I can’t believe I am actually doing this. It feels so surreal to be writing my first blog post.
I had a vision to share my experiences as a way to helping others heal. I kept telling my friends about my idea and they kept asking me, “Chris, when are you going to write your first blog post?” I would say, give me two weeks, then that turned into give me a month. Eventually they stopped asking. I know this post should have been written but I was paralyzed by fear. I feared being misunderstood by others. Now, I don’t care and I am no longer making excuses.
You are probably wondering why ‘Black Women’s Mental Space’? For starters I am a black woman. Second, I am a black woman that has suffered from depression and anxiety. I was on the verge of committing suicide. I did not know what was going on with me. I kept my emotions bottled up over the past years. On the outside I would appear fine but on the inside I was hurting bad. I used alcohol to help me cope. I did not understand what depression and anxiety were. And I did not understanding that my coping mechanism was hurting me more than what I was already feeling. Before my 30th birthday I entered therapy. Therapy taught me to let go of what was hurting me. Therapy saved my life. This blog will not be a tool to pushed therapy down people’s throat . I want to use this blog to help Black Women become more self aware of their mental state and emotions. We have been conditioned to become strong for others while having no one to be strong for us. We have sacrificed our self-care for the sake of others’ well-being. I hope that my posts will help other Black Women along the way.
I will see you all soon!
-C.U.T
